(2018-11-23) Non Touch Play

So, the instructions were to start a masturbation practice, but don’t get in a rut. What then is possible other than caresses and rubbing oil on my body? Oh yeah. Non-touch energy-building.

I close my eyes, focusing on my vagina. Just the opening. The infinity-shaped muscle that surrounds it and links to my anus are meant to be voluntarily squeezed and released, like doing kegels, but with the concept of building energy that can be stored and used all day. Not just for sex, but for powering through the day.

But it’s night, and I like the ritual of oil on my skin and my hands on my stomach to ground and begin the practice.

An awareness of my fingertips and the palms of my hands with only a sheath of oil keeping me from skin-to-skin contact. The heat builds and the oil trickles, slowly toward my mound. I move my pinky finger ever so slightly to catch the drop and redirect it.

I bear down, feeling the muscles contract. I do 4 squeezes and a release. Then I squeeze rhythmically for about 15 seconds. Slowly. Enjoying the feel of each muscle working. I feel a little clumsy, but that’s what making love to a new person sometimes feels like. It’s new. It’s not easy. It’s about me, so I’m only focused on what feels good. I rest.

There’s certainly a tingle. A swelling? Maybe more of that. The blood is rushing to the area, anticipating the possibilities of play time. Let that sink in. My body is waking up. I feel the cool sheets on my skin, Barely touching my breasts, my thighs.

Tighten. Release. Tighten Release. Breathe. Inhale deeply and squeeze. 

Hold.

Exhale with a slightly open mouth. Ohhhhh. Ommmmm.

Inhale and squeeze.

Hold.

Release.

My hands move to my thighs, lightly brushing the energy in my pussy in the direction of my legs, circling back up to bring that beautiful warmth to my chakras. A circular motion. My tongue making the connection behind my teeth, and when I’m aware of it, I pull it back and break that connection. 

It feels so sudden, and yet has me yearning for more. Longing for that connection again. 

Now, I simply contract my muscles and make the connection. Exhale slowly and when all the breath is out of me, my tongue relaxes and the waves start. I’m teasing myself. Feeling the electricity and the warmth spread through my body. I feel the love. So. Intensely.

I’m to play like this for a limited time. Learn how to build the energy and release it. It’s not about the end goal, but rather the journey. Too long, the focus has been on the orgasm, now I focus on my body instead. I want to learn what my body wants. What it needs. How can I communicate my needs if I don’t know what they are?